My Fav Twilight Parts

"I waited for the numbness to return or the pain. Because the pain must be coming. I'd broken my personal rules. Instead of shying away from the memories; i'd walked forward and greeted them. I'd heard his voice, so clearly, in my head. That was going to cost me, I was sure of it. Especially if  I couldn't reclaim the haze to protect myself. I felt too alert, and that frightened me.


But relief was still the strongest emotion in my body- relief that came from the very core of my being.


As much as I struggled not to think of him, I did not struggle to forget. I worried late in the night, when the exhaustion of sleep deprivation broke down my defenses- that it was all slipping away. That my mind was a sieve and I would someday not be able to remember the precise color of his eyes, the feel of his cool skin, or the texture of his voice. I couldn't think of them, but I must remember them.


Because there was just one thing that I had to believe to be able to live- I had to know that he existed. That was all. Everything else I could endure so long as he existed.


I lay in my bed a few minutes later, resigned as the pain finally made its appearance.


It was a crippling thing, this sensation that a huge hole had been punched through my chest, excising my most vital organs and leaving ragged, unhealed gashes around the edges that confirmed to throb and bleed despite the passage of time. Rationally, I knew my lungs must still be intact, yet I gasped for air and my head spun like my efforts yielded me nothing. My heart must have been beating too, but I couldn't hear the sound of my pulse in my ears; my hands felt blue with cold. I curled inwards, hugging my ribs to hold myself together. I scrambled for my numbness, my denial, but it evaded me.


And yet, I found I couldn't survive. I was alert, I felt the pain- the aching loss that radiated out from my chest, sending wracking waves of hurt through my limbs and head but it was manageable. I could live through it. It didn't feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that i'd grown strong enough to bear it.


Whatever it was that happened tonight- and whether it was zombies, the adrenaline, or the hallucination that were responsible- it had woken me up.


For the first time in a long time, I didn't know what to expect in the morning."


- Full Moon, by Stephanie Meyer

XoC* Dreamisty

P.S: All the quotes have been mashed up together. These are all my favorite parts from the Twilight Saga's Book. It pretty much summed up how I felt during a certain time. I would say that Stephanie Meyer portrayed the feeling of being hurt using her words perfectly! =)