Christmas Mood

Christmas is in the corner, yet you are so far away from me! Time has been cruel to the both of us, separating us and making our life so confused and complicated.

But dear one, we are soon going to reunite and this is the best feeling. Anticipation building up within and as a day is passed, the date of our reunion approaches. Thinking about the feel of your hugs, the soft caress of your hands around my waist! Oh how you swift me off my feet!

Long distance was the toughest thing for us, but if we are able to pass this test! Oh dear one, we can pass through anything in the future. 

I love you and the fact that you reciprocate this love is what matter the most!

Just a few more days... Till then my love!

See you soon :)

Merry Christmas to everyone out there! :D

XoC* Dreamisty

Cleaning & Packing

Clothes all over the place. Book all over the table. Boxes covering the whole entire room.


I guess this is IT.


I'm going to be leaving soon. Start a new life in a new environment. I mean it's not really a new environment. I'm finally going back to my father's hometown. 


I can't help but feel sad to leave my mother home. :'(


Anyways, this is not what i'll be thinking for the moment. I'm going to Stop thinking about this issue for the moment and enjoy every second I have left here. :)


After days of packing, it's still a huge mess in my room. It's like a hurricane just visited my room! :O


The fun part of cleaning & packing is that I actually found back all the things that I have lost like centuries ago *exaggerating  much* I'm actually having a treasure hunt session in my room. So much treasures have been dug out from my room, but then many of these treasures are being thrown into the "To Give" box. There is too much junks in my room. It was time I threw them.


The worse part of packing is to throw all the things that had a lot of sentimental feelings to you. I swear to you that I took a day or so to bid goodbye to certain of my clothes or even books. I just can't get rid of these sentimental feelings or connections I have towards my stuff :p


Well, letting go and moving on is hard. Once it's done, it becomes much easier. :)


I guess I have to go back to cleaning & packing once more, till then toodle-loo!

XoC* Dreamisty

P.S: I'm actually blogging facing a beautiful full moon. It's so refreshing! I will write once more, till then have a good summer day :)

My Fav Twilight Parts

"I waited for the numbness to return or the pain. Because the pain must be coming. I'd broken my personal rules. Instead of shying away from the memories; i'd walked forward and greeted them. I'd heard his voice, so clearly, in my head. That was going to cost me, I was sure of it. Especially if  I couldn't reclaim the haze to protect myself. I felt too alert, and that frightened me.


But relief was still the strongest emotion in my body- relief that came from the very core of my being.


As much as I struggled not to think of him, I did not struggle to forget. I worried late in the night, when the exhaustion of sleep deprivation broke down my defenses- that it was all slipping away. That my mind was a sieve and I would someday not be able to remember the precise color of his eyes, the feel of his cool skin, or the texture of his voice. I couldn't think of them, but I must remember them.


Because there was just one thing that I had to believe to be able to live- I had to know that he existed. That was all. Everything else I could endure so long as he existed.


I lay in my bed a few minutes later, resigned as the pain finally made its appearance.


It was a crippling thing, this sensation that a huge hole had been punched through my chest, excising my most vital organs and leaving ragged, unhealed gashes around the edges that confirmed to throb and bleed despite the passage of time. Rationally, I knew my lungs must still be intact, yet I gasped for air and my head spun like my efforts yielded me nothing. My heart must have been beating too, but I couldn't hear the sound of my pulse in my ears; my hands felt blue with cold. I curled inwards, hugging my ribs to hold myself together. I scrambled for my numbness, my denial, but it evaded me.


And yet, I found I couldn't survive. I was alert, I felt the pain- the aching loss that radiated out from my chest, sending wracking waves of hurt through my limbs and head but it was manageable. I could live through it. It didn't feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that i'd grown strong enough to bear it.


Whatever it was that happened tonight- and whether it was zombies, the adrenaline, or the hallucination that were responsible- it had woken me up.


For the first time in a long time, I didn't know what to expect in the morning."


- Full Moon, by Stephanie Meyer

XoC* Dreamisty

P.S: All the quotes have been mashed up together. These are all my favorite parts from the Twilight Saga's Book. It pretty much summed up how I felt during a certain time. I would say that Stephanie Meyer portrayed the feeling of being hurt using her words perfectly! =)

Favorite Paragraphs & Quotes

When I was much younger, I used to like reading "Twilight". Back then, I loved to read melodramatic stories. It was the first book and I fell in love with "Vampire" stories.


Today I cleared my room and guess what I found? A paper filled with quotes and paragraphs from the Twilight Sagas. :)


Since i'm gonna throw this paper, why not keep it in my blog so I can remember what I used to love reading. So here goes the Quotes & Paragraphs. =)




"I felt like i was trapped in one of those terrifying nightmares, the ones where you have to run, run till your lung burst, but you can't make your body move fast enough. My legs seemed to move slower and slower as I fought my way through the callous crowd, but the hands of the huge clock tower didn't chow. With relentless, unceasing force, they turned inexorably toward the end- the end of everything.


       But this was no dream, and, unlike the nightmare, I wasn't running for my life; I was racing to save something infinitely more precious. My own life meant little to me today." - Twilight, by Stephanie Meyer.

XoC* Dreamisty

P.S: There are so much more to come, but let's separate the texts in different pages :)

Goodbyes

The hardest thing to say is "Goodbye"


No one likes goodbyes. 
The tears, the heart aches, the depression, the separation.
Moving around the place is a great thing for the future, but to bid goodbye, it's heart aching!


A home with friends that are as close as a family.
People i've met from all over the place in these small little towns. 
The ones that would help me whenever i'm in need of a helping hand.


And most of all, YOU!
Finally I found that one thing that I have been searching for a long time.
This special thing we have is irreplaceable.


I can't make promises that I might break.
I can't reassure you 100% the things that we hope for will come true.
I will fight for this special connection we have.
I won't give up that easily.


You gave me the one thing that many couldn't give.
You treat me like a Princess.
You make me feel perfect when I'm full of flaws.


Soon, my dear, i'm leaving.
But My dear beloved, I <3 you for the present moment.


Albeit the short moment we are only able to spend time together,
We will continue to grow stronger with this separation.


Thank you for your heart. 
I will guard it with me with caution, care and tenderness. 

XoC* Dreamisty

P.S: I haven't been writing or blogging for a while now thus whatever i wrote is not gonna be good. My apologies! :(